This is the first post after a four-month break. My mental health has been poor and it’s been a challenge to blog as most of my energy has been directed into day to day coping. I am entering a calmer phase and back in the studio making small bits of work for Rossendale Art Trail that takes place October 5th & 6th 2019. Thankfully, I took images of artwork and wrote in my journal which has been useful.
I painted this in late February.
It depicts two rocks separated by a rough & stormy sea, a metaphor for the relationship that unfolded in the following few months.
Other work involved dark sea-related images representing subconscious fears from the past.
As my mental health worsened my artwork became darker & more abstract
Some of these I later worked into with pen & ink
Here is a close up of the stitching once I had removed the dissolvable fabric
Working with my therapist he suggested I needed a safe transitional space in which to locate small parts of myself so I began to make a pocket with a small figure
I made this small book which I put into the top section.
I decided to make an apron with pockets in which to put small figures
Here are more pockets that I intend to sew onto a larger garment
I’m not sure why I stopped making the figures or the pockets but the process seemed to end & I became very focused on fences & the pattern made by fence poles.
And made this textile piece
And some paper-based work:
I know that I will relapse again but I retain the hope that keeping a daily ritual of quiet self-care through meetings & agreements will reduce the severity of future triggers.